misery is a butterfly
August 15, 2008
Your mind makes mistakes like the angels must masterbate, but hey, don’t let a rainy day get you down, just take a second and look around, the trees green grass growing. I saw a man rowing out in the ocean the other day as me and my friends layed cast away on a broken down jetski. I wondered what his feeling was, to be there, rowing, on a single-maned rowboat, his two long arms extended through the oars…jesus, how soar he must have been when he started working like that, but now? The boat and him must be one, and perhaps it people learn to become one with thier surroundings, thier instruments or vehicles. To be honest I think we’re all some sort of vessel, a medium- does somethign flow through us in our attempts to express? doesn’t something constantly flow through in and around us throughout the universe? Maybe people don’t tend to think that way. But these are the things I wonder.
I remember one time I was standing out by a dock late in the night during a catastrophic thunderstorm and that was when i first embraced that electric energy of life and thought, ‘well i could die’ and i won’t lie, i was damn freightned. I was so damn scared i took two three steps back to the edge. In retrospect I maybe should have jumped into the sea and started to swim. ‘Whatever it takes’ i keep telling myself.
How is it that i do the things I do with only three strings? I guess its the same way politcians can sing and bring smiles to people faces while they secretly inside feel like everything they hear is a lie. Am I proud of these illusions? Soemtimes I may provide peopel with three seconds of a difference- I intrude into thier secure surroundings and through wood and wires, through the stroking of strings their mindframe changes. And thats my choice. I have grown dependent on the notion of music and may even become depressed without it.
Funny how I lament the physical realm as mundane yet without it music would not come to be. I’m still waiting for that day when I won’t need anything to establish a sufficeint connection. It’s happened, of that i’m sure, but when will it come again? Is it even a comprehendable concept or am I attempting to create something beautiful that words can not describe?
Science could sing and with simple chemical changes and descriptions the brain processes would be defined as such- yet when it attempts to classify the spiritual aspect of man, or the energy of tha hands, chakras and auras, ect, ect, what happens?
Whatever the case is, I love to hear things that bring forth faith. I heard a bird, or the crickets crick. Things of that nature- things from nature- and humans too- yes yes, how high i can hold the human voice and its ramblings. Sometimes i think music and drugs are both attempts to gamble with the mind- people do them all the time, some are feared, others are advertised.
I wish I could remember the ancient times where wolf and man both howled to the moon and held static star festivals where sweat and saliva came together in one huge dioynsic dreamt up dance.
‘and oh wow, i am sick of doubt, down here, in the certain south.’
to roam
July 27, 2008
im writing this twenty till seven and i cant help but thinking that maybe this reality might be better than any esteemed heaven and well, have i let life become some sort of spiritual transcendent truth? some sort of established enlightened process? I just play guitar. I can touch certain strings and sing certain notes. I am no pavaratti…i could not onfidently sing opera, but i am confident in saying i have an open mind. Am i too noble? I’ve never really hitchhiked before but i’ve done it almost every night now…there’s something about long walks kicking coke cans to pass the time waiting for late night grass gazing that might be the greatest thing life has to offer.
im waiting for the sunrise. its interesting- i was a walking daydream twenty minutes ago out on the street- i had actually walked to the beach with a few gitanos playing guitarra all the way down those blocks to get to that dark beach- and we played right there on the sand for another group of kids, with girls too yea, they were rolling hash cigarrettes and i was just singing there standing laughing loving every second of what a walking man has to have- i am a bard then- and perhaps the most beautiful thing for most people these days to listen to is just the sight of someone in the crowd who gives them an oppurtunity to really open themselves- and im not really tlking about an ultimate outlet that can leave kids catharticly killer (although its happened) im just talking about one oppurtunity i have to offer- take some strings and wood, vocal chords thoughts ideas emotions and its an instant catalyst.
im talking about creation. about cradling the essence of the universe by putting forth a personal proposition for self empowerment and concieve the concept of conquering enlightenment- of unleashing what can be the most ultimate unifying force-
im talking about music.
and if you must know, its 6:50 AM, and its ten minutes till seven.
rest in peace
July 15, 2008
if the world is all wonders and awe and the most inexplicabe happens to be the most inevitable- what inspiring things can be said? That we will all end dead? All friends, and all family? Where is that blessed faith i had called upon earliar? Ears can hear silence, eyes have seen black, tears have cried truths and what’s the use? I wish someone could try and tell me the news but when you’re sitting on the floor screaming fuck fuck fuck fuck over and over i just had to double over and die. but where’s the beauty in that? Didn’t nietzche wish us all the most incredible hardships so that we may attain a higher state of grace…? My faith had fathomed experiances like this- it had even called to it and said: i will be dead…and so i bit the bayonnettes and stood under lightning stars and sang to god…..but now? Now when the sudden surprise of death happens to beckon and i am forced to believe- god damn that disease. god damn it. I feel like a confederate in the north for i have succumbed into a state of numbness- but im breaking. i already believe- but i wish to break- i want to become that which is forever in that garden of eternal pleasure- and that is where she lays now. and so i am proud to have heard her say she wanted colors sing and dances at her funeral- what fun…what faith- may she rest in place and have heavens gate open to her name.
bananaindanger (11:05:51 PM): ey
bananaindanger (11:17:30 PM): EY
bananaindanger (11:17:32 PM): motherfucker
bananaindanger (11:17:35 PM): i got a new tattoo
aairplane artist (11:25:46 PM): LMAO
bananaindanger (11:25:52 PM): god damn right
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bananaindanger (11:26:00 PM): classic
aairplane artist (11:26:11 PM): im talking to my mom
aairplane artist (11:26:38 PM): right now
aairplane artist (11:26:39 PM): so
aairplane artist (11:26:40 PM): wait
bananaindanger (11:26:55 PM): ok
ATTENTION (11:28:01 PM): Direct IM session disconnected.
aairplane artist (11:32:57 PM): hahahaha
bananaindanger (11:33:12 PM): yeah
bananaindanger (11:33:21 PM): its so versatile
bananaindanger (11:33:23 PM): money over bitches
bananaindanger (11:33:26 PM): music over bitches
bananaindanger (11:33:30 PM): muse over bitches
bananaindanger (11:33:32 PM): my own bliss
aairplane artist (11:34:05 PM): hmmm
aairplane artist (11:34:09 PM): magic and beauty
bananaindanger (11:34:17 PM): magic, or beauty?
bananaindanger (11:34:24 PM): magic, oracles, beauty
aairplane artist (11:34:28 PM): yes yes yes
aairplane artist (11:34:34 PM): well hi to me in spain
aairplane artist (11:34:45 PM): fucking right
bananaindanger (11:34:50 PM): god damn right
bananaindanger (11:34:52 PM): hows it over there my man
aairplane artist (11:35:00 PM): jesus
aairplane artist (11:35:03 PM): just like that
aairplane artist (11:35:08 PM): like, jesus
aairplane artist (11:35:15 PM): i crashed the car too
aairplane artist (11:35:18 PM): fucking wild man
bananaindanger (11:35:29 PM): lmao shit
aairplane artist (11:35:45 PM): just utter rediculous shit and situations
aairplane artist (11:35:47 PM): alcohol
aairplane artist (11:35:49 PM): hash
aairplane artist (11:36:00 PM): constant inebriation and debauchary
aairplane artist (11:36:03 PM): especially on the streets
aairplane artist (11:36:10 PM): hahahaha oh man im american
bananaindanger (11:36:12 PM): i can imagine
aairplane artist (11:36:13 PM): an INSTANT stage
aairplane artist (11:36:16 PM): fucking groovy
bananaindanger (11:36:22 PM): sounds righteous
aairplane artist (11:36:26 PM): my man my man
bananaindanger (11:36:29 PM): lmaoo
bananaindanger (11:36:31 PM): american gangster
aairplane artist (11:36:33 PM): hahahaha
bananaindanger (11:36:36 PM): i love that
bananaindanger (11:36:45 PM): after seeing htat movie, i declared that i’d start using that
bananaindanger (11:36:47 PM): i never did though
aairplane artist (11:36:52 PM): hahaha my man my man
aairplane artist (11:36:55 PM): tis good
bananaindanger (11:36:59 PM): tis
aairplane artist (11:37:03 PM): well fuck man
bananaindanger (11:37:03 PM): so i woke up this morning
bananaindanger (11:37:11 PM): and i jumped on my bench and started playing guitar
bananaindanger (11:37:11 PM): on my balcony
bananaindanger (11:37:13 PM): and decided
bananaindanger (11:37:16 PM): i’d get a RIDICULOUS tattoo
aairplane artist (11:37:20 PM): LMAO
bananaindanger (11:37:25 PM): to enunciate
bananaindanger (11:37:33 PM): my love of the absurd
bananaindanger (11:37:37 PM): and so i went to a tattoo parlor
bananaindanger (11:37:40 PM): and i said, i said
bananaindanger (11:37:43 PM): my man, my man
bananaindanger (11:37:46 PM): what is the most RIDICULOUS place
bananaindanger (11:37:48 PM): to get a tattoo
bananaindanger (11:37:52 PM): he showed me his inner lip
bananaindanger (11:37:54 PM): it had a hamburger
aairplane artist (11:37:58 PM): ahahahaha
bananaindanger (11:38:01 PM): so, in contest
bananaindanger (11:38:05 PM): i put money over bitches
bananaindanger (11:38:06 PM): and thats taht
aairplane artist (11:38:12 PM): LMAO
aairplane artist (11:38:13 PM): oh man
aairplane artist (11:38:17 PM): thats fucking gold mate
bananaindanger (11:38:21 PM): arg
aairplane artist (11:38:25 PM): proper redic
aairplane artist (11:38:41 PM): oh yea
aairplane artist (11:38:48 PM): i got kicked out a club for dancing too provacative
aairplane artist (11:39:12 PM): had the biggest scene complete with insulting dance moves to the bouncer out on the street
aairplane artist (11:39:22 PM): passing by english men smoke and smile
aairplane artist (11:39:30 PM): we went to go smoke a spliff
bananaindanger (11:39:44 PM): LMAO
bananaindanger (11:39:46 PM): how do you get kicked out
bananaindanger (11:39:47 PM): of a club
aairplane artist (11:39:47 PM): i got up and danced and told these sweet cute spanish girls my story
aairplane artist (11:39:55 PM): oh man
bananaindanger (11:39:55 PM): for dancing too provocatively
aairplane artist (11:40:00 PM): my man my man
aairplane artist (11:40:13 PM): it is my proffession- provacative passion
aairplane artist (11:40:28 PM): i am the sex scandal master
aairplane artist (11:40:34 PM): phallic phrases too
aairplane artist (11:40:38 PM): its all very fantastic
aairplane artist (11:40:42 PM): people sure get a kick
bananaindanger (11:40:45 PM): it sounds so
aairplane artist (11:40:49 PM): let me tell you man
bananaindanger (11:40:57 PM): absurdity
bananaindanger (11:40:58 PM): and mayhem
aairplane artist (11:40:59 PM): its just beautiful
aairplane artist (11:41:05 PM): beautiful belligerance
aairplane artist (11:41:17 PM): utter nonsense
bananaindanger (11:41:18 PM): i’m pretty adept at that art my friend
bananaindanger (11:41:23 PM): jibberish and jingoism
aairplane artist (11:41:26 PM): oh you should come over
aairplane artist (11:41:30 PM): if you could buy a ticket
aairplane artist (11:41:35 PM): you got everything here
aairplane artist (11:41:37 PM): thats what i did
aairplane artist (11:41:40 PM): actuallhy
bananaindanger (11:41:41 PM): oh yah?
aairplane artist (11:41:44 PM): i didnt even pay for a ticket
aairplane artist (11:41:45 PM): yea man
aairplane artist (11:41:51 PM): rigth now we have a venezuelan dude chillin
aairplane artist (11:41:55 PM): here for a week
aairplane artist (11:41:58 PM): no rents
aairplane artist (11:42:05 PM): just a service staff for food and tidyness
bananaindanger (11:42:08 PM): i must say i’ll consider it greatly
bananaindanger (11:42:16 PM): im going on a cruise
bananaindanger (11:42:22 PM): which is a great stage
aairplane artist (11:42:24 PM): fuck that
aairplane artist (11:42:27 PM): spains the stage
bananaindanger (11:42:28 PM): and then the home of belligerence
bananaindanger (11:42:30 PM): vegas
aairplane artist (11:42:32 PM): oh fuck
aairplane artist (11:42:38 PM): americas playground
bananaindanger (11:42:45 PM): the worlds refuse heap
aairplane artist (11:43:12 PM): its what teenage wasteland must be after men get profession
bananaindanger (11:43:33 PM): LMAO
bananaindanger (11:43:38 PM): exactly
bananaindanger (11:43:47 PM): a place where ties come off and converses come back on
aairplane artist (11:43:56 PM): no conservatives
bananaindanger (11:43:56 PM): for the old hay day of hilarity and horse shit
aairplane artist (11:44:26 PM): grotesque guffaws paid suits and sex…gorgeous
aairplane artist (11:44:30 PM): only in america
bananaindanger (11:44:45 PM): god bless her
aairplane artist (11:45:08 PM): eh
aairplane artist (11:45:12 PM): fuckin whores
aairplane artist (11:45:16 PM): europe, america
aairplane artist (11:46:22 PM): im having the most fantastic lucid dreams
aairplane artist (11:46:34 PM): and i learned how to projectile vomit this morning
bananaindanger (11:46:42 PM): LMFAO
bananaindanger (11:46:47 PM): what a day
bananaindanger (11:46:54 PM): my dreams have been clownish
bananaindanger (11:46:59 PM): a real fucking demented circus
bananaindanger (11:47:02 PM): legitimately
bananaindanger (11:47:07 PM): its just an arena of some sort
bananaindanger (11:47:10 PM): like my house, or my old school
bananaindanger (11:47:19 PM): and really absurd unpleasant and wild thinsg happening all over thep lac
bananaindanger (11:47:25 PM): i swear to you
bananaindanger (11:47:27 PM): last night
aairplane artist (11:49:39 PM): last night
bananaindanger (11:52:56 PM): ?
bananaindanger (11:53:10 PM): my dad was fucking my mom on one of those horses you put a quarter in outside of publix
and there was a man in black and white striped leatard
lifting a giant chicken
like the weight lifters of old
it was highly unorthodox
aairplane artist has gone offline.
and there was a man in black and white striped leatard
lifting a giant chicken
like the weight lifters of old
it was highly unorthodox
aairplane artist has gone offline.
aairplane artist (11:55:59 PM): i read a lot of william blake before i go to sleep
aairplane artist (11:56:05 PM): and i wake up with these silly little sayings
aairplane artist (11:56:08 PM): concerning dreams
aairplane artist (11:56:13 PM): and the things ill see in them
aairplane artist (11:56:37 PM): but a quarter horse?
aairplane artist (11:56:47 PM): sounds like something a whore would do
bananaindanger (11:56:56 PM): no wonders there then
aairplane artist (12:00:10 AM): so your out soon
bananaindanger (12:00:16 AM): out, in what sense?
aairplane artist (12:00:24 AM): same way you’re in
aairplane artist (12:00:36 AM): you ever see the movie recognizing saints
bananaindanger (12:00:41 AM): nope
bananaindanger (12:00:43 AM): ive been reccomended it
aairplane artist (12:00:54 AM): i saw it twice today
bananaindanger (12:01:01 AM): yeah
bananaindanger (12:01:05 AM): and how does one recognize a saint
aairplane artist (12:01:19 AM): bah
bananaindanger (12:01:29 AM): too prosaic?
aairplane artist (12:02:59 AM): i dunno i crashed a car man i dont give a fuck cause no ones a saint people just do what they do and theyre recognized for something and labeled something silly like a saint but it aint about saints its about singers somewhat
aairplane artist (12:03:01 AM): like an opera
bananaindanger (12:03:28 AM): i think its about
bananaindanger (12:03:33 AM): people who want to do beautiful things.
bananaindanger (12:03:41 AM): if you pursue beauty with love
bananaindanger (12:03:46 AM): then your life is blessed
bananaindanger (12:03:47 AM): and saintly
aairplane artist (12:04:39 AM): listen man
aairplane artist (12:04:44 AM): ill show you something beautiful
aairplane artist (12:04:48 AM): ill show you somethign belligerant
bananaindanger (12:05:14 AM): will you now
bananaindanger (12:05:15 AM): GO
aairplane artist (12:05:36 AM): well
aairplane artist (12:05:42 AM): itll probably have to load to send and whatnot
aairplane artist (12:05:50 AM): so dont get too excited
bananaindanger (12:05:52 AM): oh
bananaindanger (12:05:54 AM): email it to me
bananaindanger (12:05:57 AM): yvan369@mac.com
bananaindanger (12:06:04 AM): oh
bananaindanger (12:06:08 AM): and if you’re still in miami
bananaindanger (12:06:09 AM): in say
bananaindanger (12:06:11 AM): a year from now
bananaindanger (12:06:15 AM): when my sister leaves to college
bananaindanger (12:06:19 AM): you’re invited to live in my home
bananaindanger (12:06:27 AM): so that you may no longer have the yoke of living at home
aairplane artist (12:06:50 AM): fantastic
aairplane artist (12:07:03 AM): ill probably be doing mad studio work at that time
bananaindanger (12:07:10 AM): i can imagine
bananaindanger (12:07:18 AM): ill probably be published
aairplane artist (12:08:07 AM): i want to send you one of my pieces or improvisations or improper term that looselys defines what i am doing titled “leather jacket recordings” cause check it my leather jacket has speicla modifications
aairplane artist (12:08:19 AM): and well theres one particular peice called fucked shakespere
bananaindanger (12:08:24 AM): lmao
aairplane artist (12:08:31 AM): its beautiful man
aairplane artist (12:08:35 AM): im telling you
bananaindanger (12:08:44 AM): i look forward to hearing it
aairplane artist (12:08:51 AM): i need to listen to it now
aairplane artist (12:09:00 AM): i AM listening to it
aairplane artist (12:09:04 AM): but i LIVED IT
bananaindanger (12:09:10 AM): even more important then ey
aairplane artist (12:09:12 AM): and i am LIVING now
aairplane artist (12:09:25 AM): its interesting
aairplane artist (12:09:26 AM): inspiring
aairplane artist (12:09:30 AM): this is the new art
aairplane artist (12:09:36 AM): life exposed, naked
aairplane artist (12:09:38 AM): no nonsense
aairplane artist (12:09:55 AM): just pure poetry of men and thier silent situations from lonely footsteps to a loud room
aairplane artist (12:10:04 AM): conversations
aairplane artist (12:10:06 AM): crazyness
bananaindanger (12:10:08 AM): feelngs
bananaindanger (12:10:09 AM): places
aairplane artist (12:10:09 AM): apathy
bananaindanger (12:10:12 AM): situations
bananaindanger (12:10:19 AM): struggle, strife, triumph
aairplane artist (12:10:23 AM): creation ryhmes with the music
aairplane artist (12:10:30 AM): everything
aairplane artist (12:10:44 AM): pure people
aairplane artist (12:10:48 AM): its not surrealism
aairplane artist (12:10:57 AM): its extreme realism if you had to call it
aairplane artist (12:11:03 AM): its blatantly beautiful
bananaindanger (12:11:19 AM): i love the notion of extreme realism
bananaindanger (12:11:24 AM): its what i aspire to most in my workings
aairplane artist (12:11:36 AM): to transcend into the very vibrations of the reader
bananaindanger (12:11:39 AM): to express the most pure and untainted version of myself and my story
bananaindanger (12:11:48 AM): without ego
bananaindanger (12:11:58 AM): its all very buddhist, i’ve been reading about transcendental meditation
bananaindanger (12:12:11 AM): and it seems like a scary, but exciting thing to involve oneself in
aairplane artist (12:13:20 AM): fabricating a very real fear in the presence of men
aairplane artist (12:13:28 AM): its those phrases
aairplane artist (12:13:32 AM): and those looks
aairplane artist (12:13:38 AM): those sounds
bananaindanger (12:13:40 AM): FEAR
bananaindanger (12:13:44 AM): fear is so important
bananaindanger (12:13:45 AM): to art
aairplane artist (12:13:45 AM): the lords
bananaindanger (12:13:53 AM): the lords and the new creatures
bananaindanger (12:13:56 AM): ahvey ou read it?
aairplane artist (12:14:02 AM): precisly my refrence
bananaindanger (12:14:07 AM): oui
bananaindanger (12:14:10 AM): i enjoyed it
bananaindanger (12:14:12 AM): blake on acid
aairplane artist (12:14:19 AM): i enjoy all of his writings
bananaindanger (12:14:22 AM): with the static of bass drums and amps
aairplane artist (12:14:38 AM): the voice of a bard beneath the makeup
bananaindanger (12:14:46 AM): indeed
aairplane artist (12:15:02 AM): my readings here are quite enlightening
aairplane artist (12:15:27 AM): ill read rimbaud and jump to blake before suppertime and thing while morrisons singing ill read his poems all the while i write my own
aairplane artist (12:15:42 AM): constantly creating
aairplane artist (12:15:56 AM): art, music, passion, poetry, life…just living man
aairplane artist (12:16:00 AM): i sleep somehwere new everynight
aairplane artist (12:16:05 AM): i woke up on the grass
aairplane artist (12:16:12 AM): just to have another glass of wine
aairplane artist (12:16:28 AM): night and day are combined and dreams with reality merged into one conscious plan of action
bananaindanger (12:16:46 AM): cheers
aairplane artist (12:16:54 AM): indeed
bananaindanger (12:17:34 AM): im going to send you an anecdote
bananaindanger (12:17:36 AM): i recently read
aairplane artist (12:17:57 AM): could you send me that poem you once wrote
aairplane artist (12:18:00 AM): the suitors strut
bananaindanger (12:18:03 AM): oh man
aairplane artist (12:18:05 AM): or something strut
bananaindanger (12:18:06 AM): the saviors strut
aairplane artist (12:18:09 AM): i had a dream about it
bananaindanger (12:19:40 AM): Saviors Strut
willow wicked walks on an empty park lane,
was a single souls shingle to a world in flame.
I watched as he trotted from brick to brick,
Brandishing a heavy tree branch like a walking stick.
He screamed maniacal whispers to the nobody in his ears,
Like snow flutter they were a stream to float the cadavers of his fears.
I wanted to say hello, a celebrity to his own, but the way he pranced, I found myself amiss, to intrude on such a cricket-like stroll.
A top hat in his hand, waving it like a magical wand, he rolled about in the snow.
He bit frost and gnawed boulders,
Damning both above and below
willow wicked walks on an empty park lane,
was a single souls shingle to a world in flame.
I watched as he trotted from brick to brick,
Brandishing a heavy tree branch like a walking stick.
He screamed maniacal whispers to the nobody in his ears,
Like snow flutter they were a stream to float the cadavers of his fears.
I wanted to say hello, a celebrity to his own, but the way he pranced, I found myself amiss, to intrude on such a cricket-like stroll.
A top hat in his hand, waving it like a magical wand, he rolled about in the snow.
He bit frost and gnawed boulders,
Damning both above and below
For this man could pin medal from no country, and bow to no flag.
He was a divine savior of the we who should never have had,
We who found no ups in our downs,
Who found no spires in cathedrals nor edicts in the edifices-
We who found no hunny in dear old mummy, no wine in wooden glasses, no good word in chorus cantatas- he and he alone, could save, us.
we were once the prophets and the poets who sang beauty from the elevated glaciers of the infinite,
once the trusted and exulted,
once the fathers and the faithful-
we who were now us, the legless remnants of a downward hill rolling upward into the beyond of ink puddle despair.
we were taken from the turrets and stripped of our pens,
wrenched from the pulpit and sliced of our tongues,
the wick on the cannonballs candle was spat on to save the show, dropped into an ocean, so that nobody should know.
he is our savior, the one who walks alone without a home- puffy wrinkled anxious and electric we drip from cheese carved mouths a waterfall of foam.
I wached him dance and prance alone, then I laughed and cried like river gouge valley while blood sputter eyelids let out their last gleeful groans.
aairplane artist (12:20:47 AM): wwhat anecdote?
bananaindanger (12:20:52 AM): ill send it in a second
aairplane artist (12:21:37 AM): what is an anecdote?
bananaindanger (12:21:42 AM): a tiny story
bananaindanger (12:21:45 AM): that shows a great deal
aairplane artist (12:21:49 AM): lovely
bananaindanger (12:21:51 AM): “an example”
aairplane artist (12:22:03 AM): people make livings off those
aairplane artist (12:22:25 AM): http://dailyfoolishness.com/2008/07/09/unfortunate-accident/
aairplane artist (12:26:24 AM): im off
bananaindanger (12:26:29 AM): wait one second
aairplane artist (12:26:34 AM): facebook message it to me
bananaindanger (12:26:38 AM): NO
aairplane artist (12:26:41 AM): BRO
bananaindanger (12:26:44 AM): bro
bananaindanger (12:26:47 AM): its taking me ages to find it
bananaindanger (12:26:50 AM): give me a second
bananaindanger (12:26:57 AM): A sailor who loved only freedom and drink declared to each woman he slept with before glory: ” After this you will never see me again. Your legs will not ensnare me like ivy, and no brat will escape them crying for love I won’t give”- All agreed, his brute force could melt medusa. He met a woman once, she told him, as the routine speech was ready to burst forth drunkenly from beer foam lips, ” you will never see me again, your manhood does not captivate me and I will not be bloated with a rat-tailed rogue crying for a mother i’ll never be.” And thats how she was born. He the whorish filth walking with the child and she saw him. He could not leave the brat, and neither could she. When the man looked into the infants eyes he saw rainbows, she said she saw mars. He lives with her now, he had freedom once and he roams the street drunkenly yelling to the people that the is a mirror behind bars. He says, ” I was roped kid, stay away from yourself, you are your own trouble.”
Essence should be expressed in the most eloquent manner possible. If I say:
Fame is just a Mind Frame-
Than the individual reaction will have a universal realization-
FAME IS JUST A MIND FRAME
day before boston
June 18, 2008
aairplane artist (11:43:31 PM): CHECKMATE
aairplane artist (11:43:33 PM): MOTHER FUCKER
aairplane artist (11:43:39 PM): yo man i had such an afternoon
bananaindanger (11:43:47 PM): so did I actually
bananaindanger (11:43:48 PM): tell me of yours
aairplane artist (11:44:25 PM): just a bardin afternoon man, listen i’ve been standing out on the street for the past days at like 4 in the morning just singing my heart out
bananaindanger (11:44:33 PM): love it
aairplane artist (11:44:37 PM): its fantastic
bananaindanger (11:44:37 PM): hows that been?
aairplane artist (11:44:42 PM): certaintly amazing
aairplane artist (11:44:48 PM): my fingers have never actually hurt before
aairplane artist (11:44:53 PM): but typing is a pain
aairplane artist (11:44:56 PM): its wonderfull
bananaindanger (11:44:57 PM): i understand
aairplane artist (11:44:59 PM): so i went to jimbos
bananaindanger (11:45:01 PM): its a great feeling
aairplane artist (11:45:11 PM): and well ANTHONY WASAKA
bananaindanger (11:45:28 PM): WASAKA
aairplane artist (11:45:50 PM): howlin songs in spanish till we transcended to the only language music understands hapalapan sang songs of wild chicken pluckin and fuckin facka shit like packa
aairplane artist (11:46:03 PM): and then a holy spirit man of the faith
bananaindanger (11:46:06 PM): bee boppin bapalapamus
aairplane artist (11:46:10 PM): comes and a plucks his guitar
aairplane artist (11:46:13 PM): says he cant take no credit
aairplane artist (11:46:17 PM): for being so smooth
aairplane artist (11:46:20 PM): its all the holy spirit
aairplane artist (11:46:26 PM): i said yea man im a man of faith myself
bananaindanger (11:46:29 PM): hes a real smoothie on the guitar
aairplane artist (11:46:33 PM): he was
aairplane artist (11:46:35 PM): he had a song
aairplane artist (11:46:39 PM): i was soloing man
aairplane artist (11:46:42 PM): i had my amp
aairplane artist (11:46:44 PM): white guitar
aairplane artist (11:46:47 PM): so much power
aairplane artist (11:46:53 PM): played all those songs
aairplane artist (11:46:55 PM): clapton
bananaindanger (11:46:56 PM): love that guitar
aairplane artist (11:46:59 PM): beatles
aairplane artist (11:47:08 PM): and just working on my craft
aairplane artist (11:47:12 PM): and i realized thats what we do
aairplane artist (11:47:21 PM): we cultivate essence/experiances for our craft
aairplane artist (11:47:25 PM): cause im a song and dance man
aairplane artist (11:47:33 PM): but i write my wonderings
aairplane artist (11:47:35 PM): i ponder
aairplane artist (11:47:40 PM): and produce
aairplane artist (11:47:42 PM): a craft
bananaindanger (11:47:48 PM): an art
aairplane artist (11:47:53 PM): an experiance
aairplane artist (11:48:00 PM): so others are exposed to the essence of life
aairplane artist (11:48:02 PM): which is
aairplane artist (11:48:03 PM): inherently
aairplane artist (11:48:04 PM): action
aairplane artist (11:48:09 PM): hence my disgust for apathy
aairplane artist (11:48:12 PM): and my addiction to angst
aairplane artist (11:48:17 PM): those are the two extremes
bananaindanger (11:48:23 PM): thats one door
aairplane artist (11:48:25 PM): humans like the number two
bananaindanger (11:48:32 PM): of course we would
aairplane artist (11:48:34 PM): makes the choice of one
aairplane artist (11:48:35 PM): easiar
bananaindanger (11:48:37 PM): we’re a monogamous
aairplane artist (11:48:37 PM): this or that
bananaindanger (11:48:39 PM): culture
aairplane artist (11:48:39 PM): simple
bananaindanger (11:48:40 PM): pairs
aairplane artist (11:48:41 PM): i love it
bananaindanger (11:48:43 PM): are natural
aairplane artist (11:48:48 PM): i see it
aairplane artist (11:48:50 PM): in birds
aairplane artist (11:48:52 PM): specially
bananaindanger (11:48:54 PM): pairs exist in everything
aairplane artist (11:49:00 PM): EVEN IN THE GENES
aairplane artist (11:49:05 PM): and thats nough said
bananaindanger (11:49:06 PM): yeah fuck
aairplane artist (11:49:08 PM): hahahaha
aairplane artist (11:49:24 PM): so you know me man
bananaindanger (11:49:30 PM): more than i should
aairplane artist (11:49:30 PM): there was a photo shoot
aairplane artist (11:49:32 PM): i mean
aairplane artist (11:49:34 PM): a commerical
aairplane artist (11:49:38 PM): thats how i went to jimbos
bananaindanger (11:49:40 PM): yeah there are al the time
bananaindanger (11:49:44 PM): shoots n shit
aairplane artist (11:49:45 PM): cause this guy on the bus told me abotu it
aairplane artist (11:49:50 PM): and hahahahaha at the end
aairplane artist (11:49:51 PM): my freind
aairplane artist (11:49:53 PM): and father
aairplane artist (11:49:55 PM): and brother
aairplane artist (11:49:58 PM): and amigo
aairplane artist (11:50:00 PM): cantador
aairplane artist (11:50:06 PM): who understood the ways of singing your heart
aairplane artist (11:50:11 PM): to the point of appeared insanity
aairplane artist (11:50:30 PM): it aint crazy its just the way we humans are sometimes when we just wanna sing and shout the same way birds and dogs cluck out to the moon
aairplane artist (11:50:41 PM): and so he placed his bike on one of those stands
aairplane artist (11:50:46 PM): outside
aairplane artist (11:50:50 PM): cause we jsut hanging on the street
aairplane artist (11:50:52 PM): the guy says
aairplane artist (11:50:53 PM): he says
aairplane artist (11:50:59 PM): take the bike outta here will ya
aairplane artist (11:51:00 PM): and i say
aairplane artist (11:51:01 PM): PLEASE
aairplane artist (11:51:09 PM): why dont you treat the man with respect huh
aairplane artist (11:51:21 PM): you son of a bitch, who do ya think you are
aairplane artist (11:51:27 PM): MY NAME
aairplane artist (11:51:31 PM): in his cuban accent
aairplane artist (11:51:33 PM): so fantastic
aairplane artist (11:52:03 PM): IS ANTHONY WASSAKA JR, GRANDSON OF ANTHONY QUEENS AND I OWN THIS LAND, AND YOU’RE FIRED, YOU HEAR THAT? FIRED!!!!
aairplane artist (11:52:09 PM): and is aid
bananaindanger (11:52:11 PM): lmao
bananaindanger (11:52:15 PM): jesus
aairplane artist (11:52:18 PM): YOU FIRED YOU FUCKING SON OF A BITCH WITH YOUR UGLY FACE
bananaindanger (11:52:19 PM): the people at jimbos are fried man
aairplane artist (11:52:24 PM): oh man a scene of another world
aairplane artist (11:52:27 PM): and here i am
aairplane artist (11:52:29 PM): laughing like a little punk
aairplane artist (11:52:32 PM): annd ooooh
aairplane artist (11:52:34 PM): its all because
aairplane artist (11:52:36 PM): i said
aairplane artist (11:52:51 PM): hey man if you dont want that biek there just say hey man please just dont place the bike there and be easy man its all good and geroovy
aairplane artist (11:52:53 PM): and hes like
aairplane artist (11:52:57 PM): no because he didnt ASK me
aairplane artist (11:52:59 PM): and i said
aairplane artist (11:53:00 PM): you_
aairplane artist (11:53:03 PM): who the fuck are you?
bananaindanger (11:53:08 PM): lmao
aairplane artist (11:53:19 PM): you the owenr of this little tent man all i want some respect man
aairplane artist (11:53:30 PM): and this greezy son of a bitch
aairplane artist (11:53:37 PM): says get outt of here
aairplane artist (11:53:38 PM): and i say
aairplane artist (11:53:44 PM): listen man why dont you jut be honest with yourself
aairplane artist (11:53:55 PM): why dont you tell us to GET THE FUCK out of here hahahahahaha im laughing man cause its so funny
aairplane artist (11:53:58 PM): i tell him
aairplane artist (11:54:06 PM): why dont you jsut tell us the truth and tell us to get THE FUCK out
aairplane artist (11:54:09 PM): and he says yea man
aairplane artist (11:54:10 PM): and i go
aairplane artist (11:54:18 PM): hahahaha yea i know you ugly greezy face of yours
aairplane artist (11:54:28 PM): telling us to leave man you so disrespectful
aairplane artist (11:54:30 PM): and he says
aairplane artist (11:54:34 PM): you little jit
aairplane artist (11:54:35 PM): and i say
aairplane artist (11:54:57 PM): oh cmon, “shut the fuck up”- right when he said, SHUT THE FUCK UP
aairplane artist (11:55:05 PM): and i laugh ahahahahaha and all the girls around are smilign laughing
aairplane artist (11:55:08 PM): and EVERYONES looking
aairplane artist (11:55:11 PM): ofcourse man
aairplane artist (11:55:13 PM): and my man anthony
aairplane artist (11:55:22 PM): my main man anthony who has family all over miami
aairplane artist (11:55:26 PM): the king of england too
aairplane artist (11:55:33 PM): you see cause this man has family EVERYWRE
bananaindanger (11:55:38 PM): lmao
bananaindanger (11:55:41 PM): naturally
bananaindanger (11:55:43 PM): a jimbo resident
bananaindanger (11:55:54 PM): they’re all somehow the most eminent men on the planet
aairplane artist (11:55:55 PM): ofcourse you cubans man it was amazing, his second cousin was marlinmy monroe AND charlie champlin
bananaindanger (11:55:58 PM): they’re just stuck in the limbo of jimbos
aairplane artist (11:56:04 PM): hahahaha and he says
aairplane artist (11:56:11 PM): me man? ive signed them all off
aairplane artist (11:56:14 PM): a co signer man
aairplane artist (11:56:19 PM): ive sign all their checks and papers man
aairplane artist (11:56:20 PM): so this man
aairplane artist (11:56:24 PM): my main man anothony
aairplane artist (11:56:30 PM): also by the name of jesus somethin i swear to god
aairplane artist (11:56:37 PM): i think he-s cultivated this other persona
aairplane artist (11:56:41 PM): cause earliar he was like
aairplane artist (11:56:44 PM): i go by two names
aairplane artist (11:56:48 PM): anthony wassaka
aairplane artist (11:56:50 PM): and jessus
aairplane artist (11:56:51 PM): well
aairplane artist (11:56:52 PM): this man
aairplane artist (11:56:53 PM): my main man
aairplane artist (11:56:55 PM): he says
aairplane artist (11:57:07 PM): MY NAME IS ANTHONY WASSAKA JR
aairplane artist (11:57:14 PM): GRANDSON OF ANTHONY QUEENS
aairplane artist (11:57:17 PM): AND I OWN THIS LAND
aairplane artist (11:57:20 PM): AND YOUR FIRED!!!!
aairplane artist (11:57:25 PM): hahahahaha i go YEA MAN
aairplane artist (11:57:30 PM): YOUR FIRED YOU MOTHER FUCKER
aairplane artist (11:57:36 PM): and i play my blues song
aairplane artist (11:57:38 PM): my hard ass beat
aairplane artist (11:57:39 PM): and go
aairplane artist (11:57:42 PM): AHAHAH YOUR FIRED!!!
aairplane artist (11:57:47 PM): while we-re walkign away and go
aairplane artist (11:57:48 PM): ALL YOU GUYS
aairplane artist (11:57:52 PM): AIGHT YOU GUYS ARE CHILLING COOL
aairplane artist (11:57:54 PM): BUT THAT GUY
aairplane artist (11:57:58 PM): HES ONE MOTHER FUCKER!!!!
aairplane artist (11:58:00 PM): hahahahahaha
bananaindanger (11:58:00 PM): lmaooo
aairplane artist (11:58:03 PM): playing my shit
bananaindanger (11:58:04 PM): sounds like a big fucking scene man
aairplane artist (11:58:05 PM): and everyoen smiling
aairplane artist (11:58:06 PM): oh man
aairplane artist (11:58:17 PM): the biggest scene i could make man hahahaha somethign you know all about man jsut like that
aairplane artist (11:58:21 PM): and my main man
aairplane artist (11:58:24 PM): truly beleived he was fired
aairplane artist (11:58:25 PM): he was like
aairplane artist (11:58:28 PM): i own this land
aairplane artist (11:58:30 PM): youll see
aairplane artist (11:58:34 PM): hes fired
aairplane artist (11:58:35 PM): and i go
aairplane artist (11:58:41 PM): never ganna work a day in his life no mo
aairplane artist (11:58:43 PM): not in this town
aairplane artist (11:58:43 PM): no no
aairplane artist (11:58:48 PM): and hes like
aairplane artist (11:58:51 PM): you see thier faces?
aairplane artist (11:58:55 PM): and im like ohh yea
aairplane artist (11:58:59 PM): soon as you said wassaka
aairplane artist (11:59:00 PM): they know
aairplane artist (11:59:03 PM): hahahahaha
aairplane artist (11:59:11 PM): the most fuckign rediculous shit
bananaindanger (11:59:19 PM): fucking circus
aairplane artist (11:59:21 PM): guy went to jail for ten years smuggling heroin
bananaindanger (11:59:21 PM): is jimbos
aairplane artist (11:59:26 PM): but boy could he sing man
aairplane artist (11:59:32 PM): had one booming bariton voice
aairplane artist (11:59:38 PM): flamenco
aairplane artist (11:59:49 PM): it was all jsut fantastic
bananaindanger (11:59:51 PM): sounds wild i say
aairplane artist (11:59:52 PM): you could imagine
aairplane artist (11:59:55 PM): it was man
aairplane artist (12:00:04 AM): and the best bit was that it was a spur of the moment you know
aairplane artist (12:00:11 AM): i had a bottle of brut sparkling whtie iwn in my bag
aairplane artist (12:00:14 AM): cuase i was goign to a girls house
aairplane artist (12:00:17 AM): so when i popped that bitch
bananaindanger (12:00:32 AM): fucking party
aairplane artist (12:00:32 AM): it was fucking glory cause dammmn this son is serious man they said i was going to be a famous lead guitarist
aairplane artist (12:00:44 AM): and i said hey man i just want yall to sing and dance and damn how they did that
bananaindanger (12:00:55 AM): good scene for your gig
bananaindanger (12:01:03 AM): did you feel like you were killing apathy
aairplane artist (12:01:05 AM): and you know what wassaka told me man he said you dont need that weed and im like yea man
aairplane artist (12:01:06 AM): OH
aairplane artist (12:01:14 AM): BATTLING APATHY AND ANGST WITH MY HEART
aairplane artist (12:01:20 AM): i wallked away pretty content man
bananaindanger (12:01:24 AM): i’m sure
bananaindanger (12:01:26 AM): moments inspire
aairplane artist (12:01:27 AM): ofcourse man
aairplane artist (12:01:37 AM): i played a showed at churchills you know
aairplane artist (12:01:38 AM): open mic
bananaindanger (12:01:41 AM): how was that
aairplane artist (12:01:43 AM): i was such a jester
aairplane artist (12:01:47 AM): made a mockery of myself
aairplane artist (12:01:49 AM): just for laughs
aairplane artist (12:01:50 AM): and kicks
aairplane artist (12:01:54 AM): seriously man
aairplane artist (12:01:57 AM): rediculous shit
aairplane artist (12:02:00 AM): felt pretty bad about it too
aairplane artist (12:02:11 AM): stale statues sittin thier in the audeince just lookin
aairplane artist (12:02:16 AM): i wanted some participiation
aairplane artist (12:02:19 AM): couldnt get none of that
bananaindanger (12:02:20 AM): laughing a little im sure
aairplane artist (12:02:23 AM): oh yea man
bananaindanger (12:02:24 AM): shy about their feelings
bananaindanger (12:02:27 AM): people are afraid to feel
aairplane artist (12:02:29 AM): i felt so bad
bananaindanger (12:02:32 AM): thats the biggest problem
aairplane artist (12:02:38 AM): thats the BIGGEST
bananaindanger (12:02:40 AM): feelings are painful
bananaindanger (12:02:53 AM): they’re adventurous, and they’re downright uncertain
bananaindanger (12:03:04 AM): chains are more appropriate for a starbucks sipping society
bananaindanger (12:03:20 AM): you got your work cut out for you
bananaindanger (12:03:29 AM): even at a radiohead concert
aairplane artist (12:03:29 AM): i got a craft man
bananaindanger (12:03:30 AM): i must say
bananaindanger (12:03:35 AM): i saw more apathy than anything else
bananaindanger (12:03:39 AM): adn the few people trying to show some feeling
aairplane artist (12:03:41 AM): you saw me man
bananaindanger (12:03:44 AM): well they were being told to get teh fuck out
bananaindanger (12:03:45 AM): like that woman
aairplane artist (12:03:49 AM): yea man ahahaha
bananaindanger (12:04:00 AM): pendulums swinging dont worry
bananaindanger (12:04:09 AM): you’ll get your chance to fill that stage hero role
aairplane artist (12:05:20 AM): but listen man im going to cry a thousand tears and bleed the way a viring bleeds her first moment of exctrasy
aairplane artist (12:05:30 AM): i realy wanted to cry man
aairplane artist (12:05:34 AM): i came home after churchills
bananaindanger (12:05:35 AM): i cried today
aairplane artist (12:05:40 AM): and i walked out on the street
aairplane artist (12:05:47 AM): the saddest man the streets ever heard
aairplane artist (12:05:52 AM): and i went to the four seasons
aairplane artist (12:06:00 AM): statrted playign the smoothest saddest song on the paino
aairplane artist (12:06:03 AM): after 10 mins
aairplane artist (12:06:06 AM): me their sittin in the lobby
aairplane artist (12:06:24 AM): some cunt comes up to me, short crew cut hair gelled at 4 in the morning comers up to me and says
aairplane artist (12:06:28 AM): this piano is just for show
aairplane artist (12:06:35 AM): JUST FOR SHOW AHAHAHA CAN YOU BELEIVE THAT!
bananaindanger (12:06:39 AM): hilarious
bananaindanger (12:06:40 AM): what’d you say
aairplane artist (12:06:52 AM): and i smiled weakly because my heart was being spliced by those piano keys
aairplane artist (12:06:55 AM): and while i play my gig
aairplane artist (12:06:56 AM): i say
aairplane artist (12:06:59 AM): jsut for show?>
aairplane artist (12:07:01 AM): and he says
aairplane artist (12:07:03 AM): just for show.
aairplane artist (12:07:19 AM): and i say, with a weak heh, i thought i was reeally puttin on a show for ya, playin this song
aairplane artist (12:07:27 AM): guess it aint that simple
aairplane artist (12:07:32 AM): and i stopp playign and hes like
aairplane artist (12:07:36 AM): you got a room here>
aairplane artist (12:07:40 AM): 666 i tell him
aairplane artist (12:07:41 AM): ahaha
bananaindanger (12:07:43 AM): hahaha
aairplane artist (12:07:53 AM): i gues the devil sent me here man cause damn cant even play the piano without puttin on a show
aairplane artist (12:08:00 AM): and he foollows me into the elevator
aairplane artist (12:08:05 AM): ahahaha i start playing man with my guitar
aairplane artist (12:08:07 AM): and i go
aairplane artist (12:08:13 AM): EVER HEAR OF AUSHWITZ MAAAAAN
aairplane artist (12:08:18 AM): YA EVER HEAR OF AUSHWITZZZ
aairplane artist (12:08:21 AM): and he goes
aairplane artist (12:08:24 AM): yea sure
aairplane artist (12:08:28 AM): ALL THOESE DEAD CATS MAAAN
aairplane artist (12:08:32 AM): AUSSWHIIZT
aairplane artist (12:08:35 AM): we get to the lobbby
aairplane artist (12:08:40 AM): and im still playin my gig
aairplane artist (12:08:47 AM): hes walkin away some other side and i go in the ehcoing room
aairplane artist (12:08:55 AM): I WAS JUST FOLLOWIN ORDERSSS AHAHAHAHA
aairplane artist (12:09:11 AM): walk out that street still being the saddest man ever knowing that atleast i was battling apathy and angst with my art
